Nov. 5- 2002

It was Leg day today. I had a great workout with my partner Clay from Crunch, Lafyette gym in Manhattan. He and I kicked ass today. My back felt great. I was so happy about that. But- he had to admit to me-- I did not look ready for a show in 3 weeks. I hate to disappoint everyone- especially myself- but, I just don't know what is possible in this short period of time. I have a lot of weight to lose. I have been holding for the whole course of my "so called" dieting for National's. Maybe my heart isn't in it. I think I had so many minor set backs-- such as my back, my shoulder, etc.. I just couldn't snap out of the funk. I am thinking- prepare for the North American and then National's for next year. I will be out in Dallas- regardless. I am working the SciTec booth. It is going to be crazy not competing. It will be the first National show that I missed since 2000 National's.

I have to listen to my body. I am still young. I can continue to chase my dream. It will eventually happen. I just need time to regroup. I have put my body through a lot. I could use a little rest and relaxation. That never hurt anyone- right? I included some pics from the Eastern USA's. Congrats to my good friend Young- from Crunch, B-way Houston who placed 2nd in the HW Men. He looked incredible. He should be at National's.

I thank you all for your support. It really means a lot. I am going to start dancing again- I can't wait. I am so ready for a change of pace. It will be great for me. Ballet is a discipline that helps with every aspect of ones life and how you carry yourself.