May 20, 2003

Sorry it has been a while since my last entry into my diary. Here are the latest developments. I went out to Iowa this past weekend to see my dear friend Malea. She was amazing. It was what I like to call -- Bodybuilding Camp where Malea was the Headmaster. I am telling you-----it was exactly what I needed. My meals where totally scheduled --- every 2 1/2 hours and cardio and training were on point. I had such a great time. Iowa reminds me very much of HOME ( Detroit , MI). Malea is such a good friend-----she really care about ME! No judgments. I can just be my typical "off-the-wall" self. I still have to learn how to shut the lights off and not keep the bathroom door shut. I have these weird bad habits.

So, I press on. I keep the dream alive. I am back in NY---doing my thing. Actually---I went to another casting call for an ESPN commercial. We will see. I am not holding my BREATH----but, maybe some GOOD LUCK is going to strike.

I am having a great time with MTV. I love the cast------Jordan from NJ. I do not want to give away too much. But----this is going to be a great MTV MADE. I just can't wait for it to air. Things are great. I really can't complain.

Just a couple of things:

1) My roommate still needs a job ( that is going to be a big deal when RENT is due)

2) I hate to diet-----but, I am getting into it.

3) Less than 10 weeks until D-Day ( THE USAs)

4) Learning about your own ISSUES is tough-------but, needs to be worked out.