May 7 - 2003

Sorry I haven't updated my thoughts in a week. I just got back from Boston last weekend----what a great Bodybuilding crowd. I really had a wonderful time. I couldn't believe the crowd. I really love Boston. I want to go back-----just to walk around and check it out. I love the college town.

I am 11 1/2 weeks out from the USAs. Taking it one day at a time-----for me-----if I can get through one day I am happy. I think about food all day long------no matter what. I can't wait until I am on auto pilot. I am getting there--------but, it just takes a lot for me.

Training is going great. My workouts have been right on. That is always a motivating force. I just wish that I didn't have so much drama in my life. My roommate just got laid off from work. It is pretty devastating. I am worried about getting stuck with the rent. There is no way I can pay---------$1800 / month on my own. There really is no way I can do it. I know things are going to workout --- she would never intentionally leave me with the rent--------but, when you don't have any money-----you don't have any money.

It just seems that life never is easy.

Here is the good news----- I am meeting with MTV on Monday. We are going out to NJ-------to meet the Boy that I am helping on the HIT show MTV "MADE". FILMING STARTS--------MONDAY. Get excited.

On the SPIDER MAN Front. So far----------not sure when the shooting will begin. I actually have to call the director tomorrow. I really hope that my scene will not end up on the cutting room floor.

I will only hope for the best.